Busy, busy week kept passing by

Another busy week passed, we did not have time to think of what should we enjoy in life or even what should we do in the next couple of days. Sometimes, I sat and meditate about a hanging question " Is a busy life good or bad?". Till now, I don't know how to write the answer but I know my life will become the answer for this question for my own.

This week, I received an extra work for a Japanese research institute to verify an IT examination papers set. It seems a lot of work to be processed but I am barely sitting here doing nothing special than other Internet surfers.

I am not happy now. My spirit is low, living a fuzzy life in a state of buzzy mind makes me tired. I cannot help keeping wondering more about our marriage, about my relationships with everybody I have ever met or known, about life and dead, about the "soul's chicken soup" (borrow this expression from Mc' Canfield)

Entering the thirties of life on earth, it's easy to be either satisfied with what we have or to be envious of what we don't have. I did the shortcut, I also did a long-run but everything seems pointless now, facing my face in the mirror.

I love Steve Job's saying (Apple CEO)" "Stay hungry, stay foolish". I try and try but sunddenly an winter leaf on my shoulder reminds me of what is precious in a life time to keep.

Sometimes, I just feel like an idiot, spending too much time for working for nothing other than money and suddently you realize that I don't know how to spend,even just that tiny amount of money.

Life goes on and I want my share not for me but for my future, yeah that's it. The shape of my future is not yet known to me but I know there is something that I can do for it. From giving Chip a better and more comfortable life and better education, etc. However, at this age, he does not seems to care about that other than the love from his mother, his father and his grandparents. From that logical trail, I by chance realize that "only time can measure how great/good love is". Thus, you wanna have a better future, you need spend more time for it.

Final notice: Above writing contains madness of a buzzy mind that you should be careful when reading!.