Có lẽ câu từ xuất phát từ những từ học được rồi những câu chữ, ca từ trong các bài hát pop mà suốt ngày nó nghe từ hồi đó.
Có một cái Tết xa nhà, nó lục lại cuốn sổ trước kia, bắt đầu bắt tay vào việc thực hiện số hoá (digitalize) những ghi chép của một thời tuồi 2x ngây ngây, ngô ngô.
Bài thơ số 1:
I CAN'T FAKE IT ANYMORE!
You cannot see the truth of me,
You cannot hold on till the end,
You just think of the goodness,
Without feeling the badness.
Once, I opened my life to you
And hope that you would grab it
But eventually I find that
You are solely keen on your happiness
Still, I know I'm faking it
'Cause my love for you 's so strong
Love you so much and
So much in love!
These make me live such a way you hate
Hurting your feeling and so to our friends
Still I know I'm faking it
But
This 's hard to explain
Wishing you could understand,
Albeit (expecting) you cannot understand
Then I live my real life in vain
But I know
I can't fake it anymore.
(23.02'.24" Sunday, 10-May-1998)
Bài số 2:
LOVE AIN'T HERE ANYMORE!
Today, I see you, I feel you
I smile at myself and think of you.
That simple way leads us too far
Finally, I know Love ain't here any more.
Love will be scuttled inside my mind.
You can't take it out an press it into my heart.
'Cause I know love ain't here anymore
(11.00'.57" Monday, 11-May-1998)
Bài số 3:
IT WAS ALL OVER.
When you rang me this afternoon
I was absolutely confused
I had changed my mind, I told myself
But why there remained such a feeling that I thought it was all over.
My heart waws beating but it lost the rhythm
I found you in the one I love
Although you cannot stand me more
'Cause I see it was all over
How could my love change into our friendship?
I asked this thousands and thousands times!!!
(16.33'28" Monday 11-May-1998)
Bài số 4:
A BEAT OF MY HUNGRY HEART!
Have you got someone you can believe in?
Or will you turn away what the feeling is?
My love is strong more than forever
Noone would ever love you better.
But when I am in danger
You aren't my protection
A sea of love remains inside of me
And I finally know the truth
You 're the one as everyone
passing in front of my eyes.
(23.02'52" Monday 11-May-1998)
Bài số 5:
A BUTT TO BUTT IN!
Baby, I miss you!
All days and nights I think of you
You 're my queen, you 're my devil.
You're ev'rthing I need
I phoned you just for my emptiness
You called a "butt"
I didn't really know what it means.
I met you then and give you time to show your thoughts
Nothing to say and nothing to see.
Love (for you) squeezes my heart!
Love (for you)blinds my eyes.
As you settle in my mind
You're burning up my passion
Though I know you have another man who you truly love
So the joke falls down on me.
I'm a "butt" and I'm telling joke
Which makes everyone cry
But I will die
which makes everyone alive.
(16.39'00" Monday 01-Jun-1998)
Bài số 6:
DREAM OVER!
Ev'rytime I close my eyes
I'll find you who always smile
Wishing you would never cry,
At the time I open my eyes
Ev'rynight I dream of you
Together we view the blue sky
Hoping we could ever fly
To the star far far away.
Ev'ry move I make
Ev'ry step I take
Make me thing of day
When I have to say
I'll be loving you
You may build my dream
You help me say these words
But I find no sign
Eventhough I 've tried
So I search a place to hide
Till the end of life
And I'll be loving you!.
(00.15'02" Tuesday 02-Jun-1998)
Bài số 7:
UNTITLE 1!
Can you hear my heart is beating?
Can you hear my soul is talking?
Can you see my eyes are sparkling?
And can you find my love is still living?
When I met you,
My heart stopped
My sould was the odd
My tears just dropped
And my love was lost.
You came to me like a summer breeze
You brought the seed of love and planted in in my deserted heart
Now it's growing but I wonder how it will survive without your arm around.
And when I die, I'll give only thing
You'll always have my love and see me through
I'll be your rain, up in heaven
Forever my love will shine on you.
(Tuesday 02-Jun-1998)
UNTITLE 2!
Tomorrow, we have an oral exams
You and I will be in one group
I'll try my best to bring you in
Even though I know it can be boring
Cause you see me as a bad lad
Who always disturb your life
Avoiding to see me, you felt better
So I told myself to cover my light
Let it shine over the darkness of the nights
But only if you're not in sight.
You are so kind just when you want to have a smile
I never stop loving you until the day I die.
There are a lot of girls to fall in love with
But there's only one girl that I'm thinking of
You're the one that I think of
You're the one that I fall in love
(đây là 1 đoạn trong 1 bài hát nào đó tôi nghe trên radio hồi đó)
I can't express this feeling
But your hadn in mine is right
So let's stay together
What do you say?
Shall we stick together forever?
(Đây là 1 đoạn in trên 1 túi đồ plastic hồi đó, ko nhớ là mua gì nữa)
(19 - Jun - 1998)
Và đây là comment của my very dear one written secretly in the notebook:
" Is this your deep love? Someone said 'Untouched love is the most beautiful love', right darling???
Why didn't you put all this stuffs to the flame befoe you gave your heart to me, darling? Why did you decide to fall in love with me? Is it your ... heart's choice or your mind's?
Khiếp, hồi đó yêu ai mà yêu ghê vậy ta....
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